That’s right, another post.

You know, I feel like I have to post this because this is just bothering me and it’s been rattling in my mind for a while so I’m just going to let out all my thoughts right now in hopes that it will make me feel better. Here goes…

You know sometimes there’s people you meet in life that you see once in your life and then you never see them again. More times than often I will wonder what ever happened to that person and what they’re doing now. Are they dead? Did they just have the best night of their life? Things like that, and it stabs at me knowing that I will never really get an answer. However, there are some people you are stuck with in life and you either love or hate them and those people you grow to love are there to stay. This is a good thing, but if something happens to make you not love that person any longer, what do you say to that person? How could you explain it in a calm manner that your feeling for them have evaporated possibly by someone else or maybe just because that person has changed while you yourself have stayed the same? Sometimes it’s just better to move on, I guess, but when you can’t let go of something or someone, what do you do? It’d be great if it were just easy as it is to say “Just stop it” but, unfortunately, it’s not that simple.

I’ve also been thinking a lot about my age. I’m 16 and I know that’s still young if you take into consideration the average of the American life span, but I still feel old. I think back to things that don’t exist any more. TV shows that you used to never be able to get rid of, playing outside until the sun went down, summer feeling like it lasts forever. There was all the time in the world to do whatever you wanted with no real worry of anything. But as you get older, it goes away. Time passes by so much faster and there’s not enough time to do anything. It’s a very awkward feeling, but I’m adjusting to it. However, I still don’t like it. I just wish there was more time to do more.